Thursday, August 25, 2011

My Name is Jenn and I am a Psychic-holic

Umm yeah so I got another reading, lol! To my credit, I am only getting the lowest charging ones with good accuracy, so give me a break! So far I have gotten four of them, and finally I got 2 that are the same!

This one was from Panrosa ( and it was beautiful, insightful and touching. She said she senses that the only thing I have always wanted was a child and that I continue to wonder if and when I will ever have one. She sensed no negativity regarding me conceiving a child, thank goodness.

She said I would conceive in October 2011 (so did Ruby) and would give birth next June to a baby girl who weighs about 7 lbs. That is now 3 psychics out of 4 who said girl, so yay! I will be getting my little Rosemarie hopefully!

Okay so if I conceive in October, it will be my first cycle on Soy Isoflavones which is interesting.. definitely thought it would take longer. And not to be a negative nancy, but the only thing keeping me from thinking of this possibility is the fact that after NINE years of TTC, we conceive the FIRST CYCLE after trying it? That is hard to wrap my head around, but I won't give up hope!

If I don't this time, no worries. I have other predictions for next year :)

Oh I forgot to add that she said she saw another girl in 2015 and a boy in 2017!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Got my 3rd Psychic Reading.. and Cried

It wasn't bad news, in fact it was awesome news and just so happens to go with Ruby's prediction. I cried because this is the first one where she actually gave some details and the realization that I might actually have a pregnancy and birth and baby in less than 2 years just hit me.

This was one was from PsychicStar on Ebay, and I will post a link at the end of the blog. She told me the conception/BFP/first scan and some little details.

First of all, she said girl and my 2nd prediction said twin girls.. now I don't think I will have twins naturally, but that is 2 out of 3 who think girl!

The month she gave me for Conception/BFP/Scan was March 2012. And actually if you remember Ruby told me I could deliver in October 2012 so if I got PG in January and was due in October and had my first scan in March, that would make them both correct!

Aside from that she said I would give birth on a Monday night and the labor would be 9 hours long. She saw no complications from the pregnancy or birth and that my daughter would have blonde highlights. Okay so at this point I was crying/freaking out. Saying the word daughter, talking about an actual pregnancy, birth and even the color of her hair? Yeah that got me, lol. And it gave me so much hope!

And last but not least, she said she saw another daughter for me in 2014 and that would complete our family.

If you would like a prediction from Psychic Star, click here. It costs a little over $5. And like always, this is not a referral link.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Soy This Cycle? Nope.. Just Kidding

Okay so big change of plans for this cycle. Yes I was going to start the Soy Iso's but I couldn't find it anywhere yesterday! We checked the grocery store, two different drug stores and Walmart. Nothing! BOO!

So at first I was really bummed out but then this morning I decided on a new plan for this cycle. I had planned on doing a "perfect month" for the month of September anyways (where you eat under your calorie limit and exercise every day for the whole month) so it's a good time to not do any TTC stuff and focus on my weight and health for the month.

Also I am out of Folic Acid which I definitely need, there are also some other vitamins/supplements DH and I both want to get. So I figured I could spend this cycle saving up and getting everything we need for our first Soy cycle which will be the next one. That way we will be 100% prepared when the cycle starts.

My shopping list for this month is as follows:

  • Soy Isoflavones
  • Folic Acid
  • Prenatal Vitamins
  • CoQ10
  • Green Tea
  • Preseed
  • Digital OPK's
  • Coast Science MFS (DH)
So as you can see I am behind on everything pretty much! I mean for just one cycle it is about $200, though the Prenatals, Soy, CoQ and Folic Acid will last longer than one cycle. I just figure if we take this cycle off it will give us a little mini break before the next few months.

What I had originally planned is doing the Soy Iso's for 4 months while DH takes the MFS (male fertility supplement from Coast Science) and then after 4 months of him taking those, we would have him get an SA to see where his numbers are. If they are good and we haven't gotten PG I would take Femara for 2 cycles (I will have 2 months worth). So that is 6 straight months of scheduling BD and TTC which will take its toll on us for sure. *Hopefully* we will get PG in that amount of time, but if not, we will move on to the new RE after the 6 months.\

So that's the new plan for this cycle! Lots of *~* Baby Dust *~* all around!

Monday, August 22, 2011

TTC: CD 5: Daily Update (Soy, Baby Psychics and More)

Okay so I thought I would do a quick daily update while I have a minute between articles. There isn't a whole lot to update on today except for the fact that I start the Soy Iso's today! I am going to the store a little later and will be able to buy them so this cycle will be from CD5-9. I still haven't decided on the dosage though. I read that the dosage of soy is typically twice the dosage you had Clomid for. So I was on Clomid 50mg would make soy about 100mg. But there are also women who have been slowly increasing the dosage each day, so they would take 100mg on day 5, 150mg on day 6, and so on.

And yes, I am still looking into the various baby psychics! I can't help it, I am completely addicted with the thought that someone might have special powers and might be able to tell me if and when I will get PG. I absolutely cannot help myself. I am only doing the very low cost ones though. Like Ruby was $5, then I got one from Suzanne who had a special for only $2 and PsychicStar on Ebay for $5. The only result I have gotten thus far is from Ruby which if you read my post about it, October this year or next year seems to be the lucky month.

I am trying to keep busy and my mind off of TTC during this point in my cycle by doing more work (yay money) and trying to eat right and exercise. The eating right comes and goes but I really struggle with exercise! Yuck fitness..

Sunday, August 21, 2011

A Realization and an Apology

This post is mostly for the infertiles who will be inevitably visiting my blog due to ICLW this month. You will soon notice that my blog is catered more towards general TTC rather than the typical IF blog. There are two main reasons for this; one, it is a relatively new blog as I deleted my old one during a mental breakdown after Mother's Day, and secondly, I have a newfound hope for conceiving a child.

I have gone down the expected route of pain, suffering, longing and lost and posted about each of those, but I wanted this blog to be different. Im sure occasionally I will post more about the pain rather than the hopeful warm-and-fuzzy feelings.. and I suppose I will start that today.

This morning as I was reading through many of the ICLW blogs in hopes of showing my support and understanding, I began thinking about my own TTC journey and came to a realization. That although I say we have been trying for 8 years, we really haven't been.

The first 2 years we definitely charted and TTC the old-fashioned way and although I suspected a problem, I never really knew. But the thing is, during those initial 2 years, everything was stacked against us. Down to the fact we used saliva which kills sperm, the absolutely worst possible BD position, I always got up right after O and some other things Im sure my DH would rather I keep private. But honestly, even in 2 years, I see now that our chances were slim to none.

Then soon after that, we began taking breaks due to the pain of it taking so long to get PG.. a lot of breaks. I think I maybe charted 1/4 of each year. Our relationship became rocky as well, which meant a lot less time of BD'ing and chances are we barely ever BD during the right time. Then I began gaining weight, my cycles got longer and fewer and I only O'd about half the time.

This is why I now have hope, because the understanding of our situation then and now is startling. We have just recently discovered all of these things we did so wrong and are now doing right. I am losing weight and getting healthy as is DH, we are taking vitamins and supplements to correct the damage that has been done, we are BD'ing at the right times and we are trying not to take too many breaks. I just feel like it is a second chance to get PG and almost like we just started TTC, not like it has been 9 years.

Its an interesting concept, because I feel like a typical infertile, yet I also feel like we just started TTC. Of course those old IF depressing feelings are still there, because even with crappy BD timing and everything else, a normal fertile couple would at the very least "accidentally" become PG in almost a decade. So I realize we still have issues, but when I let it get to me, I go a year without having hope, and lose another year of my limited child-bearing years.

So I wanted to apologize to all those visiting in hopes of reading an IF blog and come across mine, of what seems like a typical and exhausting TTC blog of nursery bedding and soy and the joy of TTC. It's just my way of coping and getting through the next month or year or decade.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

August ICLW: Welcome to My Corner of Crazy!

I just wanted to say a big welcome to everyone visiting from ICLW! If you recognize my pictures/dogs/info that's probably because I used to blog at babymagnesi but the blog was deleted a couple months ago. You can read about my breakdown here.

If you want to get to know my history, you can find it here. I love this time of the month and can't wait to meet everyone and re-connect :)

I blog pretty much daily but to get you caught up, we are about to start our fist Soy Iso cycle in a couple days which we will be doing for 3-4 cycles then moving on to Femara.

Have a *~* Baby Dust *~* Kind of Day!

Soy Isoflavones Cycle #1, CD5-9 Now?!

My original plan was to try the soy from CD3-7 but I wasn't able to pick them up in time! Today is CD3 and I don't see any way to get them until Monday. So now I will be taking it from CD5-9 which is fine with me. It will be nice to try taking them on different days each cycle.

From what I have read, taking it CD5-9 should get you a stronger, more mature egg rather than starting earlier where there are more eggs but less mature. Let's hope it works the first time!